``painne within me``

2005-10-07T19:40:00.000-07:00

..o heto n naman..tapos n yung gabing yon pero the pain still tear my heart and often burst into tears,
making me cry makes me relieved and realize how i really love him and how stupid am i!..ang sakit tlga!
nang gabing iyon, naisip koh na..wow! ang saya koh kc sinayaw akoh ni arman and baps khit papano...
though, pumasok din sa isip koh nang gabing iyon na ..ahh,owkei lng kung isayaw nia..puro akoh owkei,,
akala koh, kaya koh and madedeadma koh naman kc nandun nmn yung chickababes para mapasaya akoh...
then,that time came...when suddenly all the people behind me were cheering and all i can here were shouts,
laughs...i didn't understand why at that moment,,cold felt run through me and my heart was beating so fast...
then,,it happened!..the worse nightmare happened in my entire life!..i saw the light in them and crowd cheering for them... i was shock! and for a little time,,the time stopped and darkness filled me..all i can hear was the fast beating of my heart..i can't hear myself! then, suddenly tears burst out from my eyes.. i walked away without any hesitation while bursting into tears..all i felt was i'm all alone looking for somebody whom i can count on..i saw my bestfriend crying in pain,the same as mine..we cried a lot...all i wanted to do is to cry and rants! i want to shout all my stupidity...i'm always asking WHY?!!..we didn't finish the night and suddenly pulled ourselves together and went home..my friends were with me and we stayed at the haus of nikki..
i kept on thinking it and kept drifting while tears were falling...my friends kept on saying "tama n jai,, owkei lng iyan,hndi lng naman cya ang guy s mundo eh! tanga cya para saktan k ng ganyan!..tapos akoh naman,, hndi guys! ang sakit tlga!"but i thanked them for their solemn concerned for me that night..then, cried again!...hayyyy!!!grabe! iung gabing iyon?..ewan,basta hndi koh alam kung ano na lang magiging reaction koh,,everytime i see them..basta,,deadma n lng akoh..and covers the pain in me with smiles and giggles with my 'cada......but one thing is for sure,,,,i still love him and i'm happy for him...(khit n masakit tlga,,cguro nga tlgang tanga akoh pero alam koh n ngayon kung gaano ksakit ang magmahal)"love is the greatest emotion!"
..hay naku! tama n nga..ang drama,,haha!!bye!nytienyt^^

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2005-10-06T20:44:00.000-07:00

Hi! welcome to my blog! sa wakas updated na rin blog!
xnxa na kung medyo wierd tska kakatakot huh!
for now, ganito muna layout koh kc ito feelings koh
sa ngayon eh..pero maganda nman eh..hehehe!!
kakapagod ang day na 2oh!...half day ngayon eh..
8:30pm. dito pa kmi ni pat sa JAM`U.. naguupdate
ng blog..hmmm,, di pa pla nmin nagagawa mga asssign
nmin lalo n iung s TLE dami pa naman nun..hihi!^^
galing ang buong chickababes sa hauz ni Pat ksma ni
BAPS,,,ang saya kc sarap ng food..siomai hehee!!
tapos nanood p kmi ng finals n laban ng UAAP
FEU vs. DLSU,,,grabe sigawan kc nman ang gwapo
tlga ni Arwind Santos na nkakuha n nman ng title
n "MVP" for the 2nd time..pati si Jai Reyes na "Rookie
of the Year"..shocks!!gwapo tlga!..si Pat,, nabaliw kay
Tyrone Tang..haha!! sama ng ugali tlga ni Joseph Yeo!
gwapo p nmn niya kaso inggit cya kay ARwind kya
pinag-iinitan niya..o yan huh, updated n kayo s UAAP..
kso di koh alam kung cno nanalo kc di nmin tinapos eh,,

....nyway, thanks for visiting my blog!.....

polar bear

``painne within me``

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